one more step along the road we take
Experiencing major highs and lows is one of the joys of this rollercoaster we call life (thanks ronan!). But going from bouncing off the walls planning my escape to which ever english speaking country will take me (and give me a job) to crawling along my hall floor because i couldn’t hold myself up any more due to hysterical weeping goes way beyond what i signed up for.
I guess you are all as sick as me of all my recent woe is me crap and be assured that following abject humiliation brought on only by myself i’ve finally given myself a kick up the ass.
Yes life is tough, life is humiliating, but my life is my own and i’m not going to let a man who wears white pointy leather shoes get the better of me. I have much to be thankful for and much to plan and look forward to.
So,
I’m going to reread ‘He’s not that into you’ and not scoff this time;
I’m going to not call Alan Carr and his ‘Easyway to give up smoking’ a total con artist and try again;
I’m going back to dancing next term (with knee pads this time);
I’m going to get out of bed every morning and not let my illness take control of me;
I’m going to change my empty rainy day account (its always raining) to a healthy looking i’m out of here one;
I’m going to stop thinking i need a man to make me ‘me’ and make me, my family and friends the centre of my life;
I’m going to stop wishing i have what my sister has and realise what i have isn’t worse, just different (and that goes for anyone elses life i get jealous of);
but most of all i’m going to stop wasting my life on continuosly bemoaning the fact i don’t have a life and i’m going out to get one.
Kx
P.s Pitches for the best country for me to head for are welcome, but advice that i’m running away however is not!
That is some positive attitude lady! May i suggest England for your running away…not far i know but we’re quite nice down here ;)
“I’m going to stop thinking i need a man to make me ‘me’ and make me, my family and friends the centre of my life”
That’s what I’m trying to do at the moment.
And I’m also trying to stop being jealous of others around me who have the lives I think i want. My life’s pretty great :)
Woo for positivity x
Sounds like a good way to start! Go girl Go!
Banish what you don’t enjoy and embrace what you love and do more of it
We can do this together, our girlfriends need us too, lets all get on with things and be who we want to be and bugger everyone else lol xxx
Head to San Francisco (I know you asked for a country, but the US is too big so I had to specify). I think it’s the City of the Misfits, and it’s the first place I’ve landed in the past few years that I’ve never wanted to leave. You can never be too screwed up to belong here.
And hey, I dropped out of grad school when my boyfriend and I broke up. Maybe I was running away, but it’s still the best decision I’ve ever made.
White pointy leather shoes? Sounds like you had a lucky escape!
Don’t apoligise, it’s been said before: that’s what blogging is for. Getting it all out :)
I’d suggest Switzerland, but you can’t really call it English-speaking. They do try, but it can be painful to listen to…
Well obviously I am going to vote for Australia. Warm, fun and relaxed – why would you go anywhere else?
Thumbs up for getting on with it. Bury yourself in dancing – works for me!
Because I so absolutely love Scotland (and Edinburgh in particular), I am hard-pressed to think of a country for you to run! But I will say that I think your list of where to start is a great first step, and most likely, the best place for you to land will reveal itself before long… =-)
Give yourself a couple of weeks touring New Zealand. You will love yourself for it.
LizSara Erm, i left there 12 years ago, maybe somewhere on the south coast, mmm Brighton..
Helen yep it was time i stopped this current moaning thread. Im sure ill find something else to moan about soon tho!
Hedgewytch I agree, i havent seen this much of my mates in a long time.
Tish Tash I hadnt actually thought of the states as im scared of the immigration policies! Ive never been to San Fran but its high up on my list of places to visit.
Vicky Turns out I was drunk and they were adidas trainers. But they were still awful.
Josh Still currently top of the list, at least i have family in Sydney to start me off…
Ryane Welcome and thanks! I love Scotland too, but ive been here for 12 years and its time to try a different nationality of man. Ha!
brennig New Zealand is up there as places to actually move to!
Its an interesting conundrum – are suggestions really necessary?
Reading your (thoughtful) post, it would kinda seem to me that suggestions for where to go aren’t the answer.
Going where your own heart wants to is possibly the way. Perhaps pick somewhere that scares you a little, then go for it!
And good luck.
D x
Where is it warm right now?
Australia!
Go there. The accents are hot!
Sorry, but it really isn’t actually possible to read ‘He’s Not That Into You’ without scoffing. There’s one resolution you’ll break right there. Let us know how you go….. x
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