I don’t want to be the one the battles always choose
Habit is something i’ve written about a lot on this blog. I’ve freely admitted that I am a creature of habit; I like routine. Smoking helped that routine. As I suffer day two of giving up (headache, sore teeth, dry mouth, twitchiness) i’ve begun to wonder if it’s not the nicotine that I’ll miss, but the routines of my life.
It’s taken me 15 years to form these routines; they are such an essential part of me they almost deserve an introduction pack. These routines make up what one of my readers (and a close friend in real life) recently pointed out – my ‘quirkiness’. It’s taken me years to workout that this is actually no bad thing. Quirky is good. Different is good. Smoking has made me.
Although now smoking is killing me. Something has to give. So its time to change the routines, change fundamental parts of me, take away one thing that gives me confidence, bite the f*cking bullet and get over it.
Kx
Oh, indeed, it is giving up the little rituals that is one of the most difficult things about quitting. For me my worst moments were when I got in the car and when I was on the phone. They say it takes 90 days to break a habit. you are down to 89! Stick with it. The worst passes the first week.
I know a couple of people that have quit using the nicotine inhaler thing. Apparently it works really well. Better than the gum or patch.
I think it is the habit which is hard to break. How many people have been able to cure themselves of biting their nails? Hmmm?
Don’t miss it. Don’t let yourself miss it. I think you’ll succeed in this.
Start biting your nails instead.
xx
Hang in there mate. Kick this habit and I might even marry you when you next come to Aus :)
Argh, yes the habit it definitley the worst. Im down to 4 a day after some scary-need-to-smoke type moments, but i so want to quit, but its so nice with a coffee or a glass of wine…
Josh even after seeing my scruffy no make up pictures i have up on here??