You've gotta tie yourself to the mast my friend
I haven’t got angry; yet. I could though be be described as a cold fish, but hey, i could also be described as a man in a girls body so its all no big deal. He’s walked away, again, that, i suppose is why i’m writing this post. Although i must admit, i’m drunk, so its coming out slowly and with plenty of spelling mistakes (thank god for spell checker, its my life line tonight).
I’ve had enough platitudes for the evening, the way of the world is to get dumped, get drunk, get over it; so that is philosophy i’m following. A night out with some male friends was a good tonic.
Life goes on, so hey, what now, what is there for me? Do i get my short skirt and heals back on, get out there and have some ‘fun’ with inappropriate men and more inappropriate 30 year old women who think tits and ass is appropriate dress. And then there is the men that want that kind of woman.
I am not that kind of woman.
I cant be that kind of woman.
I am not that kind of woman, i’m not high maintenance, i do boy behaviour, i do obsessive sex that eventually fades to nothing, i do football chat, i do sci-fi, i do what ever the hell you challenge me to do, i do drinking till we all cant stand. I don’t do preening, awkward behaviour, hair flicking. But i do do 4 inch heals, gorgeous, glamorous girl.
I am a contradiction.
Maybe i should be high maintenance but i am not.
One day ill find the man who doesn’t give a shit about what i am and what i am not.
One day ill be fucking happy.
Oh miss. I was so sorry to hear about what happened on twitter the other day. But you know what, you’re doing the right thing in just getting out there and getting on with it. It will hurt and you’ll feel angry – but when you do feel angry, just remember that at he was honest with you and it might go somewhere to quelling the pain. Sometimes that’s all we can ask from people. As I always do, here’s the link to a good problem page that made sense to me over my breakup. You might have already read it on my blog, but anyway http://lifeandhealth.guardian.co.uk/relationships/story/0,,2287405,00.html
Thanks Jo, yes at least he was honest, thats true. Thanks for the article, its right, you cant bring love back once its gone. xx
I don’t think you have to go out and be inappropriate…although that’s what a lot of people might do.
I think you buy a lovely glam dress and some sexy shoes and you go out with your friends (not the ass and tits out ones!) and just have fun….well as much as you can xxx
Ha! pjb, i wrote this rather drunk last… it was a mix of the chat of the evening and me being angry about it all.
Ill be going out when im ready, i feel like nesting just now…
I’m sorry, it is always difficult when these things come to and end.
Rescheduled night out needed quickly, methinks. I’m so sorry I missed this news. I am a shite friend xx
LYG – no you are not, you have been sick havent you? See ive been bad too! But yes a night out soon would be good…
What you need is a good night out to wash that man right outa your hair. Dress up, put on some lipstick and grab your best girl friends for a night of dancing and man slagging off. No men allowed! Works a treat x
Miss*H – dont worry im itching for the weekend. Im just been reeking all weekend and need to give my liver a rest!
I’m that type of girl too. Those are the best type of girls. You are lucky you can walk in heels though! :)
What the fuck is in the water? You too?
I don’t know, I get on a plane, wake up 24 hours later and the world is on it’s head….
It’s going to be a shitty few months, but there’s not much you can do about that. So go out and have fun, and do stupid things, so that when you’re ok, which you will be, you can look back and think “well, at least I was miserable in style!” My only genuine bit of advice is don’t fuck your friends. Biggest mistake I’ve ever made and one I will always regret.
Haha, thanks Del I think thats the best advice ive been given yet – fucking my friends is not on my list of things to do, luckily i dont fancy any of them ;)