Fitting in. Life would be boring if we all fitted in.
Cookie cutter.
Sheep.
Twin.
But when you find you are ‘different’ then you feel uncomfortable, paranoid that you aren’t liked, that different is wrong.
You forget that maybe people like you for the reason that you are different, that life gets interesting when cultures clash, that finding out what makes that person tick is part of the fun. So why do i feel so opposed to finding this out, why do I feel like I’ve been the one that puts the barriers up, the one that is quick to think that I’m the one that doesn’t fit in?
Is it snobbery?
Maybe, i worry that my upbringing means that i categorise potential men, friends, jobs as being right or wrong, suitable or just totally against the grain.
But then when i go for something that fits in i feel stifled, i get that ‘oh my god, i hate this, get me out of here’ feeling. I look at the other person and think, ‘how can you be so constrained, controlled by how you think things should be…?’
So i go for the opposite and find i hate it there too.
Do you go for what you know, or for what doesn’t know you?
There is a balance, im sure, somewhere out there.
Miss S xx
Everyone has a bad habit deal breaker when it comes to relationships. Whether this is the age old leaving the toilet seat up, or spitting, or the use of the c-word, or picking noses, or farting in bed, we all have something that drives us round the bend and makes us consider walking away.
However, it seems the boy’s deal breaker with me is the most hateful of them all, no, not my mild OCD which means I have to know the answer to every trivia question (he is slowly developing this one too) but (say it quietly) my snoring.
Ok, i’m not a hog in bed all the time – the snoring is only a recent thing which has developed with the cold that will not go away. The snoring has been going on for the last two nights and its turning the boy into a grumpy, angry, sleep deprived monster (at least I know what he’ll be like if we ever do have kids – ha!) who, at intervals during the night wakes me up to tell me that i’m keeping him up.
(I have yet to wake myself up with a snore so I have to take his word for it, especially as he tells me to stop snoring when I thought I was actually wide awake. Hum, either he is lying or I am dreaming…)
Anyways, this it seems this is his deal breaker – do not come between a boy and his sleep. I’m tired of waking up to an angry, petulant, sulky little face every half hour, im sick of the tossing and turning and head under the pillow actions. Its driving a wedge between us which cannot be made a joke of. All i can hope for, that as the cold clears up that the snoring will too – i’m not sure how long our relationship can cope with this in bed with us too.
As for me, my deal breaker is hawking. Not just spitting, but hawking. I think thats worse than snoring…
(Sorry about your lunch)
Aren’t men lovely?
Do you have a deal breaker? Guys, what is yours?
Miss S x
(….or a cure for snoring, help, I don’t want to sleep on the sofa with the cats!)
Its time for another of my ‘currents’…
Current Book (s): I’ve actually just finished quite a few books – I particularly enjoyed Her Fearful Symmetry by Audrey Niffenegger (ok, its no Time Travellers Wife, but i think i enjoyed it even more for that reason alone) and excitingly i’m reading a lot of climate change books for my course.
Current Playlist: X Factor mainly, or whatever trash is on the music channels while i write essay after essay. I’m even dreaming Fight for your Love and Bad Boy lyrics.
Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: Online pizza delivery, if someone started delivering cigarettes and too i’d never leave the house.
Current Colour: Teal Blue because of my new cardigan (it’s very Madmen, i just need to get a matching teal skinny belt for it)
Current Fetish: Cadbury’s Roses, huge box, fat Miss S.
Current Drink: Cava, cheap deals for Christmas ahoy!
Current Food: Pizza, Chinese, anything junky as its so cold outside – i really need to get healthy and get rid of this cold once and for all.
Current Favorite Show: I’ve not really had time to concentrate on TV recently, ive got behind on Flashforward and V and Life, I guess i can store them up for my Christmas holidays – 12 whole days off!
Current Wishlist: A Nintendo Wii with Wii fit plus. Address on request if anyone wants to send me one.
Current Needs: Tissues, new lungs, cream for my sore nose…motivation to get fit.
Current Triumphs: 75 % for my first university essay. Wham bam thank you man for that…
Current Bane(s) of my Existence: Still the cats, always hungry, always moaning. But so warm and cuddly when they climb into bed with me.
Current Celebrity Crush: Still Atta Yaqub… although i shouldn’t stalk him in nightclubs…oops!
Current Indulgence: Strawberry laces, kids sweets, junk food, staying in bed too long.
Current #1 Blessing: Friends… you’ve all been stars recently with all the advice, so thank you! (special shout out to Me! (my mate L), Last Year’s Girl and Ohthedecadence for a fab weekend…
Current Slang or Saying: My tummy hurts…. (still)
Current Outfit: DVB straight leg jeans and the new cardi, im hoping to get a new Smedley cashmere top this week, snugly for winter
Current Excitement: Christmas, as i said, 12 days off, home to see my nephew and family, maybe a trip to Liverpool and lots of eating and sleepy
Current Mood: Tired, a bit grumpy and sore. As usual.
Current Link: Me! My new site Miss Smidge
So, tell me what are your ‘currents’?
Miss S xx