Trust is a tenuous thing, like a new friendship, it’s easy to break, for the ties that bind you together to be torn apart with a single rip. In the midst of being happy, if trust has been broken then there are always doubts, worries, thoughts, that can create a chasm of silence between you.

Sometimes you have to accept that the trust that caused you to look in someone’s eyes and believed love was absolute has gone. The love hasn’t, but the total belief in your love as a pair has. Despite this realisation I hope that it can come back.

I know he loves me and i love him. That should be enough. I dislike the fact that doubts creep in; that I’ve joined the ranks of women that doubt the feelings their man tells them that they have.

Moving forward right now is difficult, I want to take the step, I want to be able to think, ok, throw yourself into this, because it’s worth it, he’s worth it, he thinks i’m worth it. But this is holding me back. But then I know that maybe these thoughts are one sided, I know that he loves me. I know when i look in his eyes that he feeling what he is telling me he is. I know that he cant disguise it.

Love cannot be fabricated if it’s not really there. It’s the one emotion that can’t.

So why cannot I accept that this is all real?

Kx