My d.i.v.o.r.c.e came through on Friday. I’ve found this a little hard to talk about as despite the fact it’s been a very long time coming, I’ve found out it is rather taboo. If someone is happy with their situation, then surely this is all that matters? Disapproving faces are not needed. Thankyouverymuch.

Anyway, that said, I guess the emotion I’m feeling isn’t really a celebratory type of happiness exactly, it’s more relief (especially as his goodbye message consisted of “cheerio then…”)…going to a wedding the day after I received my decree wasn’t exactly the best timing tho, but it was lovely. Despite everything I’m not a cynic, i still believe that love can endure. It just needs work, work that i wasn’t willing at 22 to put in.

Scarily I also received a letter from the NHS letting me know my little ‘problem’ has come back. Or not gone away. Whatever, I have another 6 months to wait to find out if I have to go back to have more removed. Yes, this is also a little taboo to talk about, but thousands of other girls are going through the same thing as me right now, I’m nothing special, but thank god for the NHS for keeping on top of this for me. Screening is there to prevent cervical cancer. Don’t ignore it.

So, today i am really trying to not let things get on top of me. The boy and I are planning doing up my wee flat to make it ‘ours’, choosing paint colours and sideboards and rugs and armchairs is relaxing me and giving me hope for a good future for me. The last 10 years of my life are over; It’s time to start afresh.