I love me, who do you love?
Smidge Note: – It is time to get this blog back on the straight and narrow and out of password protected hell. I’m sure that in time they will be back, in fact I can promise that they will be back, but I don’t want to scream and moan right now, I want to write. I found the 30 days of truth on Hope Dies Last, but it originally comes from Girl Vaughn. Basically it is what it says on the post. 30 writing prompts for 30 days.
30 truths.
Now as I never promise to complete anything, (something always comes up or gets in the way) I don’t expect to either do all of them or any of them with the next 30 days. Not really in the spirit of the challenge. I’m changing the rules right from the start – as I am all for the spirit of positivity right now, I’ll skip no.1 – something I hate about myself and jump straight to no.2 something I love about myself.
It’ll come as a surprise to those who know me IRL that I am able to find one thing to love about myself. This is the girl after all who once told her mum she had never been happy. Ever. Not when she was 14 and hating everything about the world. When she was 25.
I just couldn’t see anything in me that there was to like, let alone love. I couldn’t see how anyone could ever love me, that my friends where they because they had to be, lumped with me in class, at scouts, in my village, because they knew my sister, because we went to university together. I couldn’t see how I could have friends because I didn’t love myself.
Nearly a year ago I wrote this post, a thinly disguised scream into the world about depression.
That some days I just can’t get out of bed.
That some days I just want to turn my head against the wall.
That some days this is one day, that some days that is the next day and the next day and the next day.
So, in truth the one thing that I love about myself is that I have been able to recognise this.
That in the last year I have been able to take huge steps forward in how I see myself. I no longer hate myself.
…and that without me knowing that one day came along and I just kept on getting out of bed…and that the day came when the sun started shining and it has kept on shining.
Truthfully – what do you love about yourself?
P.s if you want to join in, the full list is here.
I’m doing this too. My first post is up tomorrow… I need to get all my lovely readers back and I think this is the perfect thing to get me back into my blog! :)
I’m so please you’re doing it as well!
Ooh I’m glad you are doing it too! I think it’s great and kind of refreshing to write honestly. Not that I dont do that already but, well you know what I mean!
What I love about myself . . . despite my innate pessimism, I can still find the humour in a bad situation. It might not happen AT THE TIME, but I’ll find it eventually!
Right now, I pretty much don’t like anything about me. I love the person I’m with though, and that’s what’s keeping me going. But it’s the only thing.
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